Let's support the Supply Education Group!

I'd like to tell ask everyone to donate $8 for the Supply Education Group for them to build the Lenana's first-ever community secondary school. Lenana is somewhere in Africa , maybe somewhere near the Kenya. You can help out by donating $8 a month! ONLY $8! Subscribe it now by going to this website : http://www.thesupply.org/campaign/ . I spread this news is not because I am being hired or something and it's because I LOVE THESE KIDS. They need textbooks , check out this website as well :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcRqKuR2qYg&feature=related . Do you know that KevJumba went to Kenya to teach them and there's only 1 textbook for the whole class. 


Like what the Supply Education Group said ,"

You all know class 5 as the bright energetic class that danced for Kevjumba. But did you know that not everyone in this class has a textbook. In fact. there is only one textbook available for this whole class. So how do they learn? How do they share? How do they study?


They do this by working together. By having one student copy each lesson from the textbook on to the chalkboard. You see, these students make their own textbooks. They may not have been fortunate enough to be given one... But they will make sure to do whatever it takes to have one. This is their hunger to learn. Because they believe in what education can do for them.

You've seen how bright they are...You've seen the dancing and the laughing. But now see, why we believe there is so much hope for this one community. Why we believe change can happen



Because we know, that in the future...they too...will soon become the supply." Please support them now! Thank you. - Reinna.

Old and new world

 * Names changed. 
 During childhood , I was a very cheerful kid back then. I was optimistic and fun to be around , the life of the party until I got into year 7. Everything were different.


  I start being more shy and reserved when I was in year 7. I feel the urge to impress people around me and I start being more lady-like. Never knew that instantly , I became popular because of my dad's business in the village. Fear gripped me as I stepped into the new classroom. People looked at me as if I were a freak or 'something'. I was in a Malay government school in village. In the village , there's only one government and high school so I was forced to be in that school that I wish I wasn't there.


  I looked at my old classmates ; Kelvin Chin Jr* , Wawa Afiah* , Simona Bashirah* , Nurul Rahiu* , Emy Eruzi* , Rosilia Anak Adat* , Kisa* and many others. Most of them ignored me and I feel lonely back then. I had only two close friends in the school and other friends that are not true friends. Those other friends will only come and go. 


  I was a melancholy minded kid who always think about nonsense stuffs in my head. I got my first broke up during that year and it was really heart breaking because he was my first. He's Jeremy Koh*. We had little memories together but it was loads of fun. I met him in the Church in the big city. I remember holding his hand and watching 'Boltz' with my sister , Ecila Oov* and a friend , Sheryn Li*. We were together for 6 months and we broke after the White Day because it was my fault. I told him that I like a guy but I didn't say I like that other guy in what way and we got so many misunderstanding. He broke up with me and I cried hard.


  I began to change after that even some people in my school especially the girls in my class really hate me because they said they found me annoying , childish and weird. At first , I was really heart broken , I wanted to get along with them badly but I don't know how so I react that way. 


  Two of my friends during that time were Rina* and Luna*. Luna* sat next to me and Rina* was my ex-classmate during year 7 and year 8 , I was Luna*'s classmate. It was like I was in the loser mode all the time. I wanted to change and I had a crazy idea. I decided to move to the small town : Selivina *.


  Selivina* is a small town far away from my village. It took about 1 or 2 hours to reach there. We have to pass by the big city 'Bapoli*' My village is 'Tamburing*' which need to ride boats for 45 minutes to reach my village. I don't know if I'm a native but I like to go hunt down animals for leisure.


   Selivina* is a very peaceful place filled with friendly people. My sister once warned me about people there. She said , "People there can be either be your best friends or best enemies." Feeling a bit scared , I found my throat was dry.


  Day by day , Ian Wing* became my best friend in my whole life. Never knew a little slap will upside down our friendship. He was my first valentine and first person I told everything to. Usually I would tell everything to Grey Lim*. Grey and his sister ,Samantha Lim* have been my childhood friends ever since young. They are my best friends for more than 10 years.


  Life in Selivina would be better if I didn't do such stupid thing. A few good friends of mine in school : Shirley Chua* , Cherlyn Chin* , Nancy Nam* , Caroline Chung* and others. I was about to get into the group with Eve Chong* , Teresa Ching* , John Sim* , Isabella Chong , Dacy Chong* and others also Eva Chong* , Emily Chua* , Yvonne Goh* and Christina Chua*.


  Life is very interesting and I just found out that Ian used to like Sharon Lim* but he end up liking me in the end. Teresa likes Ian and she hated me. Elli* and Teresa are enemies and Elli has been pressuring me because she wanted to trick Teresa with her best friend , Cassie Chin*.


  Ian had been a real good friend to me for 3 months until the day I accidently slapped him for personal reasons. Which is involved with Shirley and Ian found me annoying now. He would rather talk to Shirley which he usually found her annoying. Suddenly , I found life is getting emptier. A huge space between us during March. I cried non-stop and I would feel really guilty and end up blaming my self. I was all drained out.


  Haley Ho* and Jester Yong* were couples. They really seemed like true love to me. Usually couples wouldn't talk to each other after breaking up but they seemed to be fine with each other even breaking up. I really admire them and see them as celebrities couples.


  During this year around , things really changed. Living with grandparents and cousins instead of parents and sister is feeling a little lost here. I'm close with my mum , Jenny Ail* and my sister , Ecila Oov*. My dad , Frank Oov* is a very strict father who set up high standards for my sister and I. We would had family fight over little matter or  religion problem again.


 I was born in Selivina but I moved to Bapoli and then moved to Tamburing for 6 years. I spend my childhood in a peaceful yet boring village. I was a bit old fashion for dressing up my self so I usually wear long pants with sloppy looking T-shirt. I had long straight hair that I wouldn't bother to comb until I got into primary 5. I like Tamburing for it's peacefulness and the air there is fresh plus the animals are all nice. Animals usually cannot live long or stay long due to unknown reason.


  I recalled an incident about my favourite pet monkey , Chit. She was killed by my ex-servant who had grudge against my family for unknown reason. We aren't sure why he killed our monkey but he got fired my by dad after that. We suspected that he did it but we still hire maids and servants. We are not rich family , just your average Asian family. 


  Sorry if I took too long to typed all these details down. For more information , please either comment on my post or send me an inbox for more details except personal details , thank you.

Fears

  I have some problems in my life. One of them is Boys Phobia. I fear of guys ever since I was a little girl , who was 8 years old. The problem occurred when I start to have a friend who was a pedophile in my old village. Everyone hated him and they told me to stay away from him. As a 8 years old mischievous kid , I wouldn't understand at first. Until that day...
"Hello there..." said uncle.
"Hey uncle!" I said happily.
"I brought some candies for you..." he said.
"Thank you!"I said as I grabbed a bag of candies.

  I was a candy lover. Big fan of 'Mentos'. I never knew that uncle could be a dangerous person who gave me a nightmare that I couldn't recall until I'm 14. One day , uncle told me this...
"Wanna play a game?" asked uncle.
"Sure! What is it?" I asked excitedly.
"I will whisper the rules and you mustn't tell anyone..."he said.
"Okay!" I said.
He came closer and whispered , " Don't shout ever , don't move away from me or we can't be friends and no candy if we didn't play...promise?"
"Promise!" I said.
Then he said , "Sit on my lap , girl...I will show you how to play..."
I sat on his lap silently. He leaned over my shoulders and said , "Remember , don't shout."


  He began to molested me and I felt very uncomfortable. I don't want to lose a friend because I used to have no friend at all. I thought it was how you get along with an adult. He began to touched more and I felt my tears began to flow slowly.


  Day by day , he touched me more and more violently. I felt every part of my body was really hurting. Soon , it was holiday and I began to forget about the incident and enjoy my little life.


After holiday , I found out that what he had done to me was shameful and it was even shameful for a Christian girl like me letting a man touching me. I began to think of a little prank. A prank that can make him suffer but I was too young to understand that time...
"He'll pay!" I thought.
"Hey uncle" I said.
"Hello girl..." he grinned.
"I have something to show you." I told him and smiled sweetly at him.
"What is it?" he said.
"But promise not to tell anyone." I said
"Promise." He said and his lips curved into a perverted smile.
I lead him to a dark alley and hold the cutter next to me as a I threw the toy snake to him. He yelled like a sissy man and I ran away as fast as I can.


  Back then at home , I was laughing to my self and thought it was funny to hear his sissy screams until the next day...


  Breaking news in the village said a man died in the alley because of heart attack. I began to sweat and blame on my self. I felt like I need to held responsibility for this. I got really scared and I began to wear clothes that would cover my entire body so no guys could find me attractive. I tried to make my self uglier and look more weirder. Eventually , it became the biggest problems in my life. Soon for years , I forgot about it until this year. It became a burden to my childhood and  sometimes I still feel deep hatred for the man but I still blame my self for being unwise and violent. I used to repeated to my self that I'm a killer. Now , I began to slowly forgive the man and trying to forget the past. Past is past , leave it behind and don't let it affect your life. - Reinna :3

Life - Ian Wing

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.
You never know who these people may be – a roommate, a neighbor, a professor, a friend, a lover, or even a complete stranger – but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.
Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are sometimes the most important ones.
If someone loves you, give love back to them in whatever way you can, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and listen to what they have to say.
Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.
You can make anything you wish of your life. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.
And if you love someone tell them, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.
Learn a lesson in life each day that you live!
Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday.
Think About it? Was it worth it?

Expression of Love - Ian Wing

Expression of love

Love is a feeling that we experience in so many different ways toward various people. Love is the ultimate expression of our divinity. It is a way of showing tenderness to our children. Passion to our lover. Love is an emotion that hold the power to heal and strengthen the physical and emotional body.

There have been times that I have expressed deep love and have been hurt. I have never regretted showing love, however, there is a certain level of expectation that it will be reciprocated by the beloved. I have also found love to be the foundation to allow relationships and people to blossom. Just spending time in nature brings me the feeling of overwhelming love and sacredness.

I think many of us feel safe showering our pets and children with love. At least the pets give it back to us with complete unconditionality. Our children go through phases where love is taken for granted. I often experience the overwhelming fullness of love for those that I care deeply about.

Once we allow our hearts to open and reveal the full expression of love it comes with great risk. We have hopes and expectations. We want it to be reciprocated and valued. When we choose to risk our hearts, we take a chance of being hurt or rejected. If we don't risk anything, what is the alternative? Remaining numb and safe.

Love has the power to heal, and, transform. Every expression of love carries in it the seeds of possibilities. When we nurture and honor love it has the ability to lift us up and give us hope, tenderness and affection. Without love we miss out on so much.

So why do we at times reject love? When an opportunity to give or receive love presents itself why do we shut down and hide? It seems that for many of us past experiences can hinder our ability to take a chance. Fear can envelop us to the point that it doesn't seem worth it to take the risk.

I know sometimes love comes with strings attached. It can be smothering, suffocating, controlling and needy. It can carry some all consuming fears if we have been hurt, betrayed, abandoned, rejected, or violated in the past. It can leave us rejecting the very idea of it's implications.

What about self love? Can we love ourselves unconditionally? Can we accept our own flaws and expect others to love us when we cannot love ourselves? What if we are not at our ideal weight? What if we have made mistakes? Can we forgive ourselves? Will others forgive us? What if we're not exactly where we want to be in our lives? Do we still deserve to give and receive love then?

What if we didn't receive the right kind of love from our parents or family? Can another person love us any better? Can we chance experiencing love when there holds the possibility that it may suddenly leave or be taken from us? If we haven't had healthy, safe, and secure love modeled for us we might not know what it should even look or be like.

Fear holds us back, when we are not living in the present moment as the full, unhindered expression of love. It can grow when it doesn't reference the past and how it once was. It can be experienced when it doesn't project into the future as to what it will be. Will love turn out exactly like we want it to? And if it doesn't, is it still worth feeling the love now?

if we can allow ourselves to love our partners, children, pets, parents and friends. If we can deeply and completely love and accept ourselves. If we can fully open our hearts to the full expression of love in all its beauty and forms, how do you think our lives will transform?

What I learnt in Life

I learnt that :-


Life have no forever.


The feeling of closeness may disappear but the love remain.


To appreciate someone before he/she disappear from your life.


To let go of the one we love.


Love have no past tense or you never love him or her.


Friends come and go but true friends remain.


Pain won't last long if it never meant to be there.


Lessons are repeated until I learn them.


Sometimes someone only come and go just to secretly teach me a lesson.


Stay strong no matter what because you worth not to get down like this.


Sometimes even I care for people , they won't care for you back because world is a vanity world.


To forgive and forget always to maintain a good friendship.


How to smile at the hardest time.


To help others even getting hurt yourself.


To be yourself and accept everything good and bad about yourself.


To value life lessons that are hurting and loving.


TO LOVE GOD NO MATTER WHAT. :3

Re-do : Ian Wing's love for me.

Ian Wing is a boy who is so much alike with me , I always call him 'Twinneh' and he call me 'Twinny'. We were best friends. He was the closest boy I ever get close to. All my life , I couldn't imagine my life without him. One day , he purposed to me but I told him , " Will you wait for 4 years?" and he said he can wait forever. This is a note from him which touched me the most :


I am...
completely devoted to you.

I love.....
your tender and loving touch.

I long...
to hold you close and never let you go.

I....
cherish you.

You make me fell....
loved and appreciated.

In you I have found...
the greatest joy in my life.

You...
inspire me.

You are...
the love of my life and the woman beyond my dreams.

You are...
always on my mind.

The closer I am to you...
the happier I am

You...
have Wowed me from the very beginning.

Your eyes are the sweetest stars I've
ever seen.

You are...
the woman beyond my dreams.

Always...
thinking of you.

Seeing you makes...
me a very happy man.

What I long for...
is to be with you forever.

When I am with you...
I never want to leave

My heart...
longs for you

You are completely beautiful both inside and out

If I don't adore you,
If I don't chrish you,
If I don't tell you how much you mean to me,
I don't deserve you.

I love...
to gaze into your beautiful eyes.

I...
adore you
Dream of a man...
that loves you, cherishes you and adores you.

You are...
my Pearl of Great Price.

I think you are...
Perfect in every way. - Ian Wing


I wish I can tell you this before you left : I LOVE YOU. 
Life have no forever. That is the sad thing about life. I miss you , twinneh. You complete me. Without you , life is lonelier and emptier. I felt like I lose another self of me. I really wish you happiness and you'll be one of the greatest guy I ever know my whole life. You taught me true love and you make me feel like the only girl in the world. It doesn't matter if you hurt me but the most important thing is I really really love you. Only you know the real me and you are willing to accept the way I am. I wish you are here with me but I guess its time to let you go. Good bye =)